boys.

i'll use this as a spot to catalogue everything that just happened.

august 10 - first date.

back from the ~second date.

but i don’t think it really counted.

he had asked me to meet him in town and we were going to get ice cream and soda, but his family intruded. we chilled on a golf cart.

then we went back to our secret spot on the beach.

i’m in his contacts as caroline :)

yeah.

and he still smells nice.

i know this is a bunch of shit you don’t care about.

but it matters to me.

he almost threw my shoes into the dunes.

and he likes my freckles.

yeah.

okay.

this is when shit gets girly.

i mean, not like it already hadn’t become.

he’s the perfect midwestern boy and i must have him.

i invited him to the boardwalk bash tomorrow.

his hair is soft.

and blonde.

like it’s really blonde.

and he has a cute smile.

basically, unf EVERYTHING.

but the bad parts are:

he’s a bit homophobic (he does go to a catholic school).

and he’s a bit racist.

the weird part is that he carries a knife.

and now he calls me a big booty bitch.

and he doesn’t text real words.

the end.

august 12

drew came knocking on our door this morning.

lalalala.

meeting him at the beach now.

my dog isn’t happy.

nor does he like him that much.

but my dog is a chicken.

AUGUST 13

basically what happened

is we went to an island

and then he was like, i like u y’all

me: but u live in ohio :(((

and he held me and shit

and then i cried

for like ten minutes

i cried

no i actually sobbed

and then he wanted to dance

but i was like

dancing

wat is

and then he carried me back

and it was really dark

and yeah

and then bench time

running away from trams

and then elevator time

yeah

YEAHHHHHHHHHHH

GUESS WHO FEELS RATHER

SLUTAsTIC.

but it’s like

d00d

put that thing back in your mouth

idek

what is even happening

but yeah

that happened

and i can’t sleep

so i’m just going to tell

you

all about it

because i’m like

giggling

and shaking

and eating nervously

and i know you care 

a lot

AND FIRST KISS HAY

today we made out like you've never seen.

or actually, i'm just really painfully awkward.

idek i was groped. 

it was weird.

drew tried to grab my boobs, but i was like, hahahano.

my ass is fine.

idek.

i don't know.

i'm really not coherent at all.

it's weird to be dry humped i don't know.

like what am i supposed to do.

this isn't fun for me.

but mr erratic breath over here is having a ball.

oh well.

i've made out in a pool, underwater, in a forest, on an island and in the rain.

do i win or something?

i think i got a really good guy for my first ~romance.

and first kiss, Jesus.

he's gonna be a star, i know it.

going to the nba.

he says otherwise.

but i know he will.

and that's all i have to say.